One thing I know…
In the end, the very end, Jesus wins.
He’s the Victor.
And His grip on me is way, way stronger and more sure than my grip on Him.
All the rules and standards and convictions and non-optional principles in the world won’t help you when the rubber hits the road. They have nothing to offer when it comes to grief, death, tragedy, or suffering. Jesus never fails. When I can no longer hold on to Jesus, He holds on to me.
But I have to believe in the grand theme of Scripture: that the very One I rebelled against is a God of reconciliation and redemption. I believe it brings Him glory when He accomplishes those things in our lives. It is what Satan rages against in a battle he can never win. God snatches us out of the pit, washes us clean, tends our wounds, clothes us, and adopts us as sons and daughters. Those of us who are prone to wander He welcomes back home with celebration. He doesn’t just redeem us — He demonstrates His redemption power over and over again in our lives, giving us beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, a garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness… He takes the most horrible, vile and ugly things that Satan used for evil in our lives, and He unbelievably, amazingly does the impossible by somehow using those things for good. It’s what He does. It’s Who He is.
I deeply wish that I would never again forget, for even the most fleeting of moments, the truly wonderful things that this incredibly amazing God has done and is doing for me. And, as if that’s not enough, there is this one thing so overwhelmingly unbelievable, so completely undeserved, so beyond my understanding, that I can barely bring myself to write the words.
He loves me. Me. Despite everything, God loves me.
Quoting the Apostle’s Creed:
- I believe in God, the Father almighty,
creator of heaven and earth.
I believe in Jesus Christ, his only Son, our Lord,
who was conceived by the Holy Spirit,
born of the Virgin Mary,
suffered under Pontius Pilate,
was crucified, died, and was buried;
he descended to the dead.
On the third day he rose again;
he ascended into heaven,
he is seated at the right hand of the Father,
and he will come to judge the living and the dead.
I believe in the Holy Spirit,
the holy catholic (or Christian) Church,
the communion of saints,
the forgiveness of sins,
the resurrection of the body,
and the life everlasting.